Dethrant of eternal doom!

AH, yes- does that come as a shocker for you, jackoffs? *weak smile* I was in a relationship. Have been in one since- well... anyway, long story short- the good doctor is single again. Me and my close one had a talk when they returned from their 'dying' father's birthday party two or three days after when their friends came over to hang out by the pool.

Apparently one of them had told the other- that if they don't confess up to what they did that night that she supposedly was driving home- which is an hour away from here, in my car- she was going to tell me what happened.

And that was when my close one decided to speak up and tell me what the fuck truly happened.

Apparently they had went back home, went to the birthday party, drove my car down to the lake with a few friends (including one whom I believed to be my best friend- I introduced the two assholes.), and apparently had sex in a bathroom stall with said 'best friend'. Came back the next day, and hadn't planned on saying anything to me since until the other friend threatened them.

... so, long story short- my close one fucked my best friend, cheated on me, and had absolutely no intentions of telling me, and didn't feel a single thing about it. The worst part? I let that person come live with me, in my house, eating my food, using my utilities, paying me absolutely nothing besides what little gas they can afford to give me to get away from their idiot, insane, stupid, godforsaken, uncaring, cold hearted, bitchy, family- only for them to stab me in the back like this. Use my car... Ugh, I can't believe how much of an absolute idiot I was.

What sucks the most?

Yeah- that's been my life. I have shitty luck in relationships- which is why I tend to try and stay out of them. Because apparently I either hold too much faith in the person, or almost everyone is just shitty and doesn't remember what it's like to be in an old fashioned good relationship.

Exactly as it says. Barely even working enough or making enough money to pay for anything, especially all my bills. So, I've picked up more shifts, working even harder, and hoping to eventually get another call from a different even better paying job so I can finally get the fuck out of there.

Okay, so not exactly college, but this will be my last course to graduate once more- and I had to take it online because I didn't get a grant unless I was a full time student, and I'm not taking any bullshit courses just to be a full time student- fuck that shit.

So... I took one online course (four hundred dollars later), the finish up my degree and that's sort of where I'm stuck now. Finals are July twenty-second, which is right around the corner and I need to focus. I was so caught up in my life when midterms rolled around I had to beg my instructor to let me retake them and not get an 'f'- five days later. It took my mother pointing out to me asking 'did you ever take your midterm?'

My reaction? ".... ah fuck...."

Anyway, so I can't let that happen this time or I will fail this very expensive course and not get my degree I worked so hard for. So I'm making sure I get this done, and I get it done right. Even though my job is kinda interfering with that- but I'll figure out a way. Hopefully after finals I'll be a little more free to do as I like since I won't have to worry about school work and then bed.

Now- I know what you're thinking... that insomnia should actually be helping me and giving me more time to do this, right?

Wrong.

Actually, my insomnia has worn off (which is generally does once every few years) and leaves my body so weird and maladjusted, that I can't get my sleep cycles straight and together and I am just exhausted all the bloody time. So... when I could be up roleplaying and chatting with everyone, instead I'm so exhausted that I can't keep my eyes open and fall asleep on the keyboard.

Thanks, insomnia.